Have you ever felt lost?
Alone?
I abhor feeling like that.
I hate feeling singular.
I am scared of abandonment.
You know,
it took a while.
For me to realize that I was wrong.
That I was just wasting her time.
Just to watch her drift away.
Like they all do.
Like always.
I am not what they need.
Because I am not what I need.
I am a failure.
And I will remain as such.
Until I succeed.
But that may be quite a way off.
So a failure I remain.
I am in despair.
I am shutting off.
I am emotionless.
I am cold.
I am a robot.
I go through motions.
I look like a real boy.
I am not.
I am not.
I am not.
I feel so... lost,
abandoned,
broken down,
alone.
