Reasons

I bet you never knew that I was doing this for you.

Just to impress you.
Clearly the way I was wasnt enough
so now I am changing
this steady change is tough
but its what I need
I would do it for me
but whats the point in that
to be better for no reason
it makes no sense
its selfish how it is now though
I am changing because I want something
because I want someone.
I am changing for a reward
Even though I know I wont get it
There is still room to hope.

Should I keep it up
or give it up?
That is my question
I need to answer it myself of course